As much fun as it’s been here in the heat, living in the slummed up house, having no real shower all week long, getting no sleep and rooming with 10 – 12 other girls, alas party time is over for me. I cannot tell you, how relieved I am right now to be laying in a nice bed and airconditioned room. I am in heaven. And it’s just me………..ah………. sigh.
The past week’s living arrangements reminded me of basically what it would be like to be living in a dorm at age 30. Holy fuck. Can you say hell? (Yes, don’t get me wrong, parts of it were definitely fun and the girls there were lovely.) Buuuuut…. I’ve realized how important “my” time is to me. I need to retreat and can’t do the constant people thing… at all. It’s way too much for me to process and handle. Way, way too much. I told Melissa last night I came to this conclusion. Also, perhaps I’ve come to the conclusion… I am in love with myself. Ha ha ha. I really enjoy myself. I do! I’m not gonna lie. Lol.
People close to me have said that I am too critical of others and Sean’s always told me I have a hard time making female friends. I realize this week how accurate that is. People annoy me. .. period. I have a short fuse. I’m spoiled and I’m a brat. However, this makes for the most special friendships of those people close to me who don’t annoy me (lol). Like Melissa! Thank god she’s on this trip. Loving her.
Cause P.S. my girlfriends back home - you knooooow how much and often I need you to vent. Lol. Time difference here is kinda screwing that up for us. Lol. Melissa gets to cover for you all now. Haa ha. Miss you guys, btw :(
Love, Janelle
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Glad you're discovering and accepting some things about yourself. I'll bet you're loving that hot shower! Love, Mom
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